On Saturday mornings, I like to spend time reviewing the past week. This reflection allows me to re-experience the highs and to also contemplate the lows from the perspective of how I could've done things diferently.
This week, I made a mess of a close friendship. It was completely my fault. I misinterpreted something and let my over-sensitivity cloud my reactions. I made it about me when I should've been supportive of this person's tough time. I said things that were hurtful and caused someone I love to feel stress. Now I'm at a loss as to how to fix it. Or even if I can.
Had a bad visit to the dentist. Wasn't properly anesthetized, and a process that should've been easy caused me such intense pain that I blacked out for a minute, then started hyperventilating. It was scary.
I'm struggling with strength training at the gym and wishing for greater progress. Once again, I'm my own worse enemy with self-criticism and doubt. Can't shake a feeling of inadequacy.
Had some good, too. Received a very positive critique in class on Monday night and I'm truly excited and energized by the creative people I'm meeting and the projects I'll be working on.
Went to my niece's confirmation last night and was so emotionally moved by the love of friends and family.
What have I learned this week? Sometimes it's better to shut up and not allow my own insecurities to tear down other people. That I take myself too seriously. That I need to spend more time relaxing and focusing on my blessings. That next week is a new week, and I can start again.
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